Three months into the new gig and Gamma's got drama already. Can I catch a break on the job front -- PLEASE!! I'm getting too damn old for this.
I've got to have a "come to Jesus" talk with my boss tomorrow. It's our regularly scheduled "how's it going" meeting but I'm going to have to address some issues and Lawd I HATE confrontation. The issue revolves around training (or lack, thereof). The first few weeks of training were really good and covered most things I need to know to perform one part of the job. The second part of training was lacking to put it nicely and it's put me in a position of not feeling comfortable to speak to all the work I've been doing. Bascially, I've been going through the motions ... not good for any kind of analyst position. If the Analyst is not fully understanding the pieces, no amount of faking in the world is going to make yo sound like the expert you're supposed to be.
To top it off, I made a mistake last week. I'm okay with that, I'm human. But what frustrates me is that I'm now put in the position of defending myself for not doing something I didn't know I had to do. How the hell do I defend against that without coming off as making excuses? To make matters worse, the person that called me on the mistake, approached the Gamma ALL WRONG and in a totally unprofessional manner. I couldn't even respond to her tirade Friday as I knew it was not going to be pretty. I just left (and went to the liquor store). But I have to bring it up to the boss tomorrow. The person that fell down on the second part of my training is one of the boss' pets. Lawd why me?
Corporate politics suck worse than the government politics we're all dealing with right now. I think I've got my speech worked out so that I don't throw the boss' pet totally under the bus, and hopefully getting hooked up with the lady I know will teach me the right way. Work shouldn't be this dang difficult. Why can't we just go to work, do our jobs, without all the drama?
The world would be so much simpler.